Since beginning to vlog again, these blogs have greatly dissipated. A lot of anxiety has re-entered my life and I wish things just didn't get the best of me. I was talking to a friend recently about how I can't see how my life can be exciting. I never was one of those kids growing up who dreamed of much. I always felt important and that I was meant to do something but nothing ever hit me to strive for anything. I know great things take a lot of work but a passion for something must exist and for me there is nothing.
The only motivation for me to become an adult, live on my own and take all responsibilites in full is not because I strive for any goal... it is just realizing that things right now just dont work.
